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It was a couple of months before Fox’s birth that I had discovered the concept of free birth. I first came across the term on an Instagram post where I read of a woman who had chosen to give birth at home, with no medical assistance, choosing to only have her husband present. My initial reaction was how brave she was, but also how risky it seemed. Why wouldn’t she have a midwife there ‘just in case’? What if something went wrong? I saw that she had been interviewed for a podcast by the Free Birt...

My first son was cut out of my body, while I was chemically paralyzed, naked, and screaming.

That birth left me shattered.

Of course, I was deeply grateful for, and in love with, my newborn son. At the same time, I was deeply angry, confused, and in pain about how he was born. And it is the strangest thing to have to reconcile those emotions. Love and shock. Joy and nightmares. Pain and beauty.  The flashbacks would wake up at night as much as the nighttime feedings.

In retrospect, I recogniz...

I went to bed on the 27th March 2018 with some mild, sporadic waves. I might have felt some during the night, or I dreamed, but could sleep anyway. When I woke up in the morning of the 28th, they were coming in steady intervals and I could not ignore them. I took milk with ghee and a bit coffee but didn't feel for breakfast. While G and the kids were eating, I installed myself in the bathtub where I remained for around 4h. I was mostly lying on my left side, under water. It provided me good reli...

It was Tuesday the 16th, I was 42 weeks and 5 days today. I had a lot of peace on this day, I felt like I probably had a few more days until baby would make his/her debut and I was being patient trusting that my baby and body knew best. Looking back, I may have had peace because I had just accepted I was going to be pregnant for the rest of my life! Ha! Or maybe it was because even though I didn't know, my body and baby knew, today was the day! I woke up having sporadic pressure waves but this h...