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Into the wild and go into the wild, I am. It's been a while. Freedom, child, since I left my roots back home into I don't go into the wild I had. It's been a wild freedom child since I left my roots back home. Welcome to the Free Birth Society podcast. This is a radical space for women who are ready to celebrate their autonomous choices in birth, motherhood and beyond.
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Together, we'll learn about wild birth through personal narrative. We'll explore the politics of birth and will analyze everything that relates to our lives as women. From a feminist perspective, here's your host, Emilee Saldaya. Wild freedom check.
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Saints have left my room bare home.
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All right, welcome to the show, Hari. Thank you so much. Where are you calling in from today? Costa Rica, that's where you live in the. Yeah, we live in the top of this beautiful mountain in Costa Rica. It's amazing. How long have you guys been settled there? Well, about nine months, I'd say. Oh, the. Your baby's life. Yeah.
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Unknown
Okay. Wow. Okay, so that's a that's part of the story. Yeah. Yeah, exactly. Okay, cool. So, yeah, take us to wherever you really want to start. Like, who are you before you become a mom? When does this idea of free birth come into your consciousness? And then. Yeah, we've it in certainly with this big move because that would be, I'm sure so related.
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Unknown
Yeah. So before I got pregnant, I was living in Portugal. Me and my husband, we talked about having babies for a long time, and we had a lot of stuff to work through first. And then one day just out of the blue, it just it just felt aligned to, to try, you know, we're like, okay, we're going to do it.
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Unknown
And afterwards he was like, but yeah, put your legs up against the wall and laid out, you know, like this old wives tale. Who knows if it works. But I did that for half an hour. It's fun. Exactly. And and yeah, I got pregnant first time, which is wild when you spend years, you know, worrying about getting pregnant and you, you know, I thought, okay, I'm 34, you know, I thought maybe it would take a bit longer.
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Unknown
I was on birth control when I was younger and whatnot. Yeah. So we were in Portugal and, Yeah, I should give some background to the medical stuff as well, because at that point, I hadn't been interacting with the medical system for quite some time. I had my own reasons, because when I was younger I had acne.
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Unknown
And, you know, I was put on birth control for the acne and all the topical antibiotics and everything. And, you know, and they never asked me anything about my past traumas that I'd experienced. And I think I just became disillusioned. You know, I had I had the copper coil at some point I had one of those awful, you know, they said that there was some cells in my, you know, when they do those cervical things.
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Unknown
And I had one of those let's treatments and I think I can't remember what made me just go, I'm just not going to do this anymore. It just didn't feel right. I just started to realize that I could figure stuff out on my own, and I didn't really want to take pharmaceuticals. First of all, I didn't want to interact with a lot of doctors that I feel aren't really walking the talk, you know?
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Unknown
Oh. How young were you when you started on birth control? And then how old were you when you, like, got off all of it. Oh, God, I think I think I was at least 13 when I started, and I was on Diana, which is one of the worst ones, apparently. And I was on it for, for at least eight years.
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Unknown
Eight. Yeah. So you're like 21 when you get off it, maybe like 23. I can't remember exactly. But I remember like how once it had finally come out of my system, how I felt like a different human being. Wow. I mean, ten years, 13 to 23, your entire, like, developing God, that's so intense that we do that, girls.
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Unknown
Wow. Well, it seems ridiculous now if I think, like, what the hell? But I was in that paradigm, then, you know, I was fully in it. I didn't know anything else. So. And now I'm like, what? We do this to us? Well, I mean, I don't know if a 13 year old doing it to herself. Yeah. That's true.
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Unknown
You know. Yeah, I was just desperate, you know, I didn't want to be like pus filled face. And, you know, it's like it was the worst. Have acne. Right? We're like, when our daughters have acne, we're going to be like, what's your conflict and what are you eating? And yeah, like, you know, like, God, yeah. My acne only went away when I started feeling all my suppressed emotions that I stopped feeling when I was nine.
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Unknown
So it was amazing. And I think that I think once I started my healing journey at around like 26, and I actually started feeling my emotions again, and I noticed that my skin started changing and there was not really any diet changes. It wasn't to do a diet, it was just energy. It was like coming out of my skin like self-hate.
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Unknown
And once that started changing, I was like, this, this is, this shows me something that there's more to life than just, you know, I we've got a physical issue. Let's fix it with something like, no, we're deeper than that. We're deeper into energetic beings. So from 23 on, you're starting to really figure out who you are and get you're getting off the pharmaceuticals.
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Unknown
You're starting to feel like a real human feel like yourself. And then what happens? Yeah. So yeah, I went on a big spiritual journey, like many people do. That's where I met my husband. And yeah, so I can come back to where we were in Portugal and I got pregnant. It was I did use a pregnancy test and yeah, I it was hard to fathom really, when I just saw those two lines, I was like, what is this contraption like?
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Unknown
Well, it was just I didn't even believe it. You know, the second line when it was coming out and my husband was like, that means you're pregnant. I was like, no, no, it's not dark enough yet. Like, I just couldn't fathom the fact that I was like, I was pregnant. And, before getting pregnant, I dabbled a little bit in, like, learning about birth, but not really.
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Unknown
I don't think I'd found Rebirth Society yet at all. I think I just somehow suddenly was interested in looking at natural birth videos. But I didn't do it a lot. But I just knew as soon as I got pregnant I wasn't already. I already wasn't interacting with the medical system. So I was like, okay, so I just, I just do it, which felt okay.
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Unknown
And I think where it became a bit challenging was about eight weeks into my pregnancy, I had a really strong, bright red lead. I was in a supermarket and I felt this force come out of my only, and I put my hand there and it was bright red blood and I was like dripping really fast. And I was like, oh shit.
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And of course I was Google searching and, you know, obviously learning about miscarriage and everything. And I still, despite all of that, I had massive anxiety attacks because I sort of made my I made it worse really, by searching. I still didn't want to go to the doctor, so I just trusted I was like, well, there's nothing I can do if I'm going to lose this baby.
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Unknown
And somehow that experience of having so much anxiety in the beginning and realizing, like, I created all of that, I made that so intense that set me up for the rest of the world pregnancy because I realized that I can't. All I can do is just show up like I'm not in charge of growing the baby. I'm just showing up and nourishing myself as best I can, just listening to my body.
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Unknown
And, so yeah, I just she was she was obviously okay. She, Yeah. And I, I didn't share this yet actually, that I maybe in 2018, I had this name come to me, which I was like, I meant to change my name because I was sort of in some New age wanky spiritual circles back then. And I was like, no, it doesn't feel like it's my name.
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Unknown
And then it's only when I became pregnant that I realized, oh, it's for my baby. But yeah, so I sat with that. I did, like, fully stick on it, just in case, you know, when she was born. But, yeah, I was I started to really feel her. And we were living in Portugal at the time I said that and we got kicked out of our house.
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Unknown
They wanted to put it on Airbnb, you know, the standard thing. And at that moment I thought, oh, I don't know if we're meant to stay here in Portugal. And a friend had planted a seed about Costa Rica some years back. And I just said to my husband, I don't know if we're meant to stay in Portugal. Like, what do you think about us going to Costa Rica?
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And he was quite, you know, like reluctant. We've been in Portugal three years at the time, made amazing community and everything. It didn't make any sense on a logical level. Right. And we just kept sitting with it. And then I think after sitting with it for a while, I think we booked the tickets when I was six months pregnant to go to Costa Rica.
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Unknown
And, yeah. So we and when I was six months, we moved into a caravan and that was really that was hard because it was really hot. It was Portugal in the summer and it was like 30 degrees inside, and I was like six months pregnant. I was like, oh, this is really this is really intense. But yeah, we sold so many of our belongings and sort of condensed them down.
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Unknown
And yeah, we moved to Costa Rica when I was seven and a half months pregnant. Like having never been there. No, I'd never been there. My partner, he'd been there when he was 19. But yeah, we just we knew one person who lived where we are living now, and it was just really clear the guidance was really clear to go to Costa Rica.
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Unknown
And all of our friends in Portugal were like, why are you going? Like, we want to meet this baby that you're growing, why are you leaving? And I was like, baby guidance. My guidance like. And even my husband who was resistant to it initially was like he was right. So what is it? What is it about? Costa Rica.
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Unknown
Like, what was guidance? Yeah, like, because that is a big deal to leave a three year deep crew and a place you guys seem to like and go one way to a place you've never been before to have a baby is is a little bit of a wild idea. Like, what were you going there for? And did you get it I think yeah, where we are, we're in Portugal, we're in the south, which is it's incredibly dry.
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Unknown
So that was a huge thing. I, in my own journey was feeling the importance of water and really connecting with that element a lot. And I know that Naya, her name actually means water. And I think she really wanted to be born like next to a river, which is where she was born. And yeah, and also just I don't know what it was like.
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Unknown
I think, I guess logically, I gave ideas like, okay, yeah, there's an abundance of water there. And, you know, as nature all around, it's a lot more green, it's a lot more lush. I'm very much a nature being like, if the nature's lush and really abundant, I'm really happy. But it was difficult. Yeah, that's a big deal. Yeah.
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Unknown
I mean, we we left Colorado for where we are now for that same reason. Just like eating lush and eating water. Yeah, yeah. And I mean Portugal is incredible. I love it. There's no there's no comparison there. Completely different things. But it was yeah I think the biggest thing was the water. It was like Portugal was drying up and it continues to dry up.
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Unknown
And you know how the world is. It's like lots of extreme things happening. So yeah, that's and for sure we live right next to a river a stone's throw away. And where we live is called chirpy, which is like the land of eternal waters. So, you know, the kind of answered that prayer, I guess. So you show up and you're having a wild pregnancy.
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Unknown
And do you have language for all of this? Like, do you know about free birth? Like, what is your what's kind of your frame for all of this? Yeah, I, I think what I found when I was still in Portugal, when people were like, oh, you're pregnant, who's your midwife going to be? And I was just like, I'm not going to have a midwife.
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Unknown
They were like, what? Because then the community I lived and everyone had the same midwife. Right? And, you know, it was so interesting. Every time people would project the, you know, I was like, oh, they've got birth trauma, they've got birth trauma because they're putting it on to me. And I desperately wanted to find someone to speak to personally that had free birth, and it was quite difficult.
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Unknown
And I wanted to find a first time mum that had done it, because there's so many women that have done it second time, and my friend had knew someone that did it, so she we had a call and she was the one who said, listen to the free birth ID podcast, like. And I was like, oh, there's a whole podcast with women talking about this.
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Unknown
Great. So then I started listening to that and that gave me, I think I knew about free birth. I knew about it like, it just wasn't. It just suddenly just became huge in my life, you know, it wasn't like I was researching it before and it was like, okay, I'm free birthing. I just but I love about it because it's like, even though there's this, you know, there's a thing happening, you know, where it's taken over Instagram and the birth world and, you know, all this stuff, you know, largely thanks to me in this podcast, I love that it's also and more so an intuitive knowing a a a it's so much bigger
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Unknown
than, than any of that, you know, and that women just from the dawn of time, I'm sure, and forevermore will just decide or choose to do this. And it doesn't need any language and doesn't need to be heady, and it doesn't need to be this whole hashtag. You know, it's such a private internal choice or awakening or whatever you know you want to call it.
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Unknown
And I, you know, a lot of women find out about it from the podcast and that's so cool. But I especially love when women just, like, make it up because it's like, yeah, exactly. It's just yours to have. It's just an idea, and it's an idea to just actually allow. It's not like you don't need to buy anything.
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Unknown
You don't have to do anything. You don't have to go anywhere. It's to actually just flow. It's to not interrupt. You know, it's so cool. Yeah. And I also want to share that my connection with Nia kept getting stronger. And she she was like, you are rebirthing me. There wasn't another option, Emilee. Like she was so confident. So, you know, of course throughout like maybe I had some fears coming up in preparation, but once I connected with her, like, she she was just so certain and confident, this is what's happening.
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Unknown
And I didn't I didn't have a lot of doubt on being real. Like, I think my husband had a lot of fear, but he could feel how strong I was in my knowing, like I'm free birthing. And he just was like, okay, I trust her. Like he could feel how strong I was in it and I, I just was like, this is happening.
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Unknown
I just knew what, if any, did you feel like you needed to kind of prepare, you know? Did you choose to educate yourself or or was it just pretty intuitive and not heady? Or like, what did you kind of feel like you personally needed to wrap your head, heart, you know, and and household around in order to be so confident?
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Unknown
I think the one thing that I was missing was people that had done it, people that were talking about it as if it was like, yes. And because I started following you and like at that time, you had put your complete guide for free birth on sale. And I just was like, I'm going to buy it. And what I got from it was just validation for what I was choosing from you and Yolanda.
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Unknown
I wasn't really so interested in the medical stuff that because I was, wasn't worried about any of that. So it was more just hearing you guys talk about it as if like, this is a real thing. It's like I needed that kind of like, you know, you were like, the little cheerleading is like, this is a real thing.
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Unknown
And I was like, yes, yes, it's real. Like and that's, that's that really helped me. I needed that. So at the time, I didn't have community or I didn't know many people that were free birthed. And I still I mean, I'm in the community, but in the actual world, I don't know that many women that are free birthed, like, personally, you know, we're sort of dotted all over.
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Unknown
Yeah. So I just wanted community. I wanted to know, like, yes, what you're doing is totally viable and safe and good, you know? So it was that helped me a lot.
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Unknown
So anything else to to share about?
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Unknown
You know, take us to the point since you do birth on, you know, the earlier side take us from when you land in Costa Rica to right around that time. Like, what else is there to say about you preparing and then take us into the, I'm assuming, surprise and shock of, you know, birth presenting so soon? Yeah. So we, you know, I, I booked as a place, you know, we paid a deposit for a house that was still in before, so we had somewhere to land, you know, it was just easy.
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Unknown
And we were just nesting, you know, like, making it cozy because it's just a really cute mountain cabin, you know? So we had to make it a bit cozy, so we were very nasty vibes. But yeah, we we were, we didn't have a car at this point. We were relying on our neighbor to take us down into town.
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Unknown
And I became friends with a sweet, sweet 73 year old lady that lives up the road. But yeah, preparation wise, like we hadn't, we hadn't even got to the point of like, I wanted to have all had them got to the point of getting a pool or anything, and we were just going to get like a kids pool, you know, like, and yeah, a lot of, a lot of my time preparation actually, from being here was learning about the rules and regulations or just like the way birth works in Costa Rica.
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Unknown
Because I don't know if you know about Costa Rica, but it's the hospital system here is pretty terrible. And, you know, they forcibly vaccinate your child and, you know, things like that. So I had to learn how am I going to favor. Where does that not happen? Oh, do they always vaccinate in every country? Oh, I thought like you had an option.
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Unknown
Like in somewhere like England, if you want what they say. But I know way too many nurses who have told me that they just do it when the mom's asleep. Oh, wow. I didn't know that. I mean, I'm sure some children get out without it. You get my point. Like I'm saying, all my systems are bad. All ospital systems are doing shit that parents are saying no to.
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Unknown
Yeah. Of course. Yeah. Okay. And also just birthing this way in Costa Rica with getting a birth certificate can be complicated. Yeah, we had to find you. No special arrangements for that. Yeah. I just basically didn't want her to go into the system because they have a thing where they come and check on you, and they like this kind of like the Gestapo, and it's scary.
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Unknown
Yeah. So, yeah, I learned I was finding out the information for that, finding out what I needed, and also making sure that I could go through this entire pregnancy without seeing a doctor, because all the women that I was contacting saying, you still have to go and see this doctor. And I was like, no, I don't. And I was like, I'm going to I was visualizing, I'm going to go through this entire pregnancy without going into any medical establishments, and I wangle it somehow because I just was like, I'm not doing it.
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Unknown
And yeah. So to start the birth story, I went into town when I was like 30, 33 weeks with my friend Tina, and I went into the toilet. I was paying all the time. Obviously at that point and I when I peed, I found what I thought was my plug and I was like, well, this must be a mucus plug.
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Unknown
I don't. I've never seen one before, but I guessing that and I thought, that's strange. 33 weeks, six days. And at this point I joined the Free Birth Society group community. So I wrote, like, has anyone lost their mucus plug this early? And someone were like, yes, but your waters can reseal or oh, you know, you don't know you could be in labor was like, well, you could be starting.
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Unknown
And I was like, okay. So I just I didn't worry about it. I just was like, okay. And that was, that was on one day. And then Wednesday morning in the a m at 1 p.m. after I got up from my normal two hour p stop. I got back into bed and my just yoni just gushed of water and I was like, that is not P.
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Unknown
That's like my waters are breaking. Can't be. So I tell my partner in the morning like I was, I think my water was broken. He was just like, what? And I was like, I know. And so again, it was like, maybe they'll real, maybe they'll real seal or whatever, they don't know. So yeah, that day I was you didn't feel you didn't feel scared?
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Unknown
No. I was just like, okay, I didn't I was just trusting. I mean, I think at this point I, like I said, that connection that I had with Naya, I even even the flight, you know, we almost missed our flight to Costa Rica because my husband was freaking out. He had, like, an old trauma coming up and we almost the gate.
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Unknown
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Unknown
Com and join the network. Okay. You know and we got with the last people on the plane and I just I just knew like I had this I just had this trust this this like knowing that everything was going to be okay throughout most of the pregnancy, but especially towards the end. And that carried so when when my waters broke, I was like, okay, I trust.
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Unknown
And so, you know, most days here when the sun is out, we go to the river on the rock. And that morning I didn't go. I was like, you know what? I'm just going to stay. I feel a bit sensitive and I wasn't sure what was happening. And I, I was incredibly hungry that day. I don't that's the most I've eaten in a long time by so much.
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Unknown
And I pooped so much. Like, I was like, how can I? I put six times, I was like, I've never pooped that much in my life other than maybe when I was a baby. So I was like, okay, this is strange, but I didn't have like, you know, I had like some faint murmurings in my womb, you know, but nothing, nothing to write home about.
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Unknown
And maybe towards the end of the day, they, they got a bit more kind of like, you know, bit stronger. And so my husband went up, I was in the down, we had a downstairs bedroom and he went upstairs to get my toothbrush. He was like, okay, let's stay down here tonight just in case. That's where we were planning on doing the birth.
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Unknown
And when he came back down from giving my toothbrush, suddenly I was in labor. I was like, I can't even brush my teeth. Like it was just suddenly like that. I was like, I can't brush my teeth. And then before I knew it, I was just. Yeah, I was in active labor just like that. And yeah, I was turned the lights off, turn everything off.
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Unknown
We didn't have anything, you know, planned or anything. And my husband couldn't see anything once it got dark, you know, because the sun goes down at like six is he had, like, a little headlock, headlamp on and I. You know what it's like you go into the birthing thing and I. Yeah I was so you being what, just shy of 34 weeks.
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Unknown
It sounds like I was 34 weeks and two days when I went into labor. So as you're realizing it's real and labor is actually occurring, I mean, you weren't nervous about her development or, you know, it being so early. No, I didn't I think you know what happened. I know what helped me a lot was that maybe a week before, maybe this was all perfectly guided.
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Unknown
Someone that I follow on Instagram shared about her 35 week gestation births, and that somehow gave me this thing of like, it's okay, you can give birth solely or you can give birth at this time. I don't even like saying early because it's just when they choose. So I think that that gave me this feeling of like, this is just another variation of normal.
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Unknown
I didn't freak out. I was like, okay, I'm going into labor. And by the time I got sucked into the labor portal, I was just like, I couldn't think about anything. I was like, wow. And yeah, I definitely would have liked a bit more time to prepare for the birth because I, you know, you can't prepare for the sensations.
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Unknown
You can't prepare for the earthquake, the shattering, like being split open, like you're I don't know, you can't. But yeah, I was I was definitely like shocked by the intensity of it. And I think I didn't have any pre or I didn't have any. It was just suddenly I was like boom in it. And I was like, whoa.
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Unknown
And yeah, I was howling. I was, I was using my voice in ways that I've never used it before. It was. And that was the only way in that I could go through it. And yeah, my, you know, I was asking my husband, I was like, can you rub my lower back? I don't think I had back labor, but it was sensitive.
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Unknown
But I was so sensitive to touch. And I was like, that's so hard. Even though it wasn't hard, you know, and it just I don't think at some point he could really handle, you know, like the sounds that were coming out of me. And so I think he put in headphones at some point. I think he left the room at some point.
00:28:47:02 - 00:29:02:13
Unknown
I didn't even know. He was like, I had to go make something to eat. And I didn't even know he'd left the room. And I think actually, I think it was easier in some way when he wasn't there because he had his own fears, of course, because he was like, we don't have a car if something goes wrong.
00:29:02:14 - 00:29:25:15
Unknown
How are we going to get anywhere like and and so I think I could feel that on some level. So when he left the room, you know, it was sort of it was still intense, but it was easier. And yeah, I just nothing I didn't have a lot of space between contractions. So yeah, when they come on and I feel like I had like a minute rest and I was like, no, no, I can't go back in.
00:29:25:15 - 00:29:45:16
Unknown
I'm not ready, you know. And he at some point I don't know how what the time was, but at some point he said, why don't you get on all fours? Because I was sort of laying on the bed at that point, so I could sort of rest in between if I got on all fours. And then of course, like, I didn't realize this at the time, but there was more pressure because the baby was coming down.
00:29:45:16 - 00:30:00:14
Unknown
But I was on all fours and like, poop, started flying out of my bar and my husband was lovingly, you know, cleaning it. And I was like, no, I don't want to do this. I like at that point I got on the toilet. I was like, I'm going to clean my own. But with our bum gun, you know, like if it's coming out.
00:30:00:14 - 00:30:19:16
Unknown
And I hadn't clicked at that point that, you know, the pressure was pushing things out. And, you know, I had the same story. I'm sure many women do. Nothing's happening. Nothing's changing. I can't do this. And at some point my guides was like, check your yoni. Like, have you even checked? So at that point, I was sitting on the toilet.
00:30:19:16 - 00:30:38:03
Unknown
I put my hand in there and I was like, oh, that feels like a head. Like, obviously I think I've never done this before, but like, what else could it be? Yeah, exactly. And I said to, I said, Joffrey, come in here. Do you think this feels like a head? And he said, yes. And at that point I was like, oh, I'm kind of on the home stretch, like.
00:30:38:04 - 00:30:59:22
Unknown
And I was on the toilet and I was howling like a werewolf. But I somehow felt like, okay, like it has been moving along and I'm further along than I thought I was. And yeah, as she started to come down quite quickly and yeah, I, I was really glad that I watched the episode that you and your Landy talk about the Ring of Fire, because I was prepared for it.
00:30:59:23 - 00:31:20:22
Unknown
But somehow, somehow, I don't know the whole time during the birth, like, I don't feel like I'm in control, right? I'm just surrendering. But somehow, once she was coming into the birth canal, I felt like I had more power or control because I was like, okay, like I can push her. And I didn't have the, the fir, the, the spontaneous pushing thing happen.
00:31:20:22 - 00:31:45:21
Unknown
It was like I had to push her out. And yeah, I so yeah, even though it was, it was like on the toilet, somehow it felt really good to be pushing because that's kind of where you release stuff generally. And yeah, I think through a few pushes I got her head out and I sort of held her, held her head with my muscles.
00:31:45:22 - 00:32:03:07
Unknown
I heard that sometimes people say like in between contractions, you know, they can go back in. So I held her and with my head. And Joffrey wasn't even here at the time he was out. So once I got her head out, I called him and I was like, Joffrey, her heads out. And he was came in and he was like, oh my God.
00:32:03:09 - 00:32:24:13
Unknown
So I was like, standby, standby. And then I did another person, her, you know, just a shoulder and arm came out. And then I did one more push and I said, like, get ready and catch her. He caught her just over the toilet and she came out and he put her through my legs. And I just sort of ambled to the bed from the bathroom.
00:32:24:13 - 00:32:50:07
Unknown
And her cord was actually quite short, like it was quite hard to get her to reach my breasts. And yeah, I, I think I was just, I was just in shock. I think at that point it was about it was seven hours. So I think I went into active labor at like 7 p.m. she was born at 130 and I was just yeah, I was like, oh my God.
00:32:50:09 - 00:33:25:14
Unknown
She she cried straight away. She was very pink. She. Yeah, she she seemed fine. And we rested, you know, for a good 45 minutes to an hour just to kind of ground into, you know, okay, there's a tiny human hair. And then I was like, okay, let's try and get the placenta out. So I went into the shower and we were we still had her attached and stuff, and I think I crouched down, but it just didn't seem to be coming out.
00:33:25:16 - 00:33:49:04
Unknown
And I tried a few more times, but at this point I was just exhausted. So I said, let's just go to bed. And then we woke up the next morning at 6 a.m. on the same morning even. And I kept trying to to release the placenta and it just didn't want to come. And at that point I realized that I had lost the ability to pee.
00:33:49:05 - 00:34:14:16
Unknown
I simply just could not pee. That was pretty tricky because I really needed to drink and hydrate and eat, but I didn't want to eat and didn't want to get thirsty. And I, I had planned, you know, I was in contact with an acupuncturist before my birth. Just in any case, an acupuncturist is probably the only kind of thing I would use in case of emergency.
00:34:14:20 - 00:34:33:00
Unknown
And I said, because, oh, I didn't say after she was born, I didn't get any after birth contractions or anything like that, which I guess is why the center also didn't come. So I texted the first home moms very rarely feel I'm sure they did happen on some level, but like I didn't feel any of my first baby.
00:34:33:01 - 00:34:55:09
Unknown
Oh you didn't. Okay, okay, that's good to know. Thank you. By text her. And I said, can you come over like. And she came over that morning and she put in points and it helped start up the after birth contractions. And she also was really helpful because she told me in her birth she lost the ability to pee and she they put a catheter in her.
00:34:55:10 - 00:35:27:21
Unknown
She was like, why don't you text someone? Because that was the day we were meant to go to the market and we didn't go. And our friends picked up a catheter for us in town. So what? They bring back this catheter and obviously my only was hugely swollen. I'm imagining. Not that I was looking at it and my husband, blessing, was trying to find my youth and he was poking for ages, you know, with this, like, you know, this plastic thing and, and I at this point, like my whole center was an absolute agony.
00:35:27:22 - 00:35:47:09
Unknown
I had this huge cramp because I hadn't peed in however long. And it was like really a huge pressure. And then he was also trying to get this thing into my youth, and I was like, I God, like it was so painful. And Nia was still attached with, you know, the center and everything. So it was just it was it was intense.
00:35:47:11 - 00:36:13:04
Unknown
The thankfully, the acupuncturist, my friend came back and she was like, oh, well, you know, like her, wherever the youth normally is is probably my greatest because, you know, you're only so swollen. So once they realize that they, they got it in okay. And then my bladder was able to release, which was incredibly relieving almost. It was the most really.
00:36:13:06 - 00:36:28:11
Unknown
It was almost more relieving because I, it was so painful that I was thinking like, wow, if I didn't release my bladder soon, can your bladder burst? That was the only thought of like, maybe I need to go to the hospital just to release my bladder, you know, like, but I didn't know what to do because it was so incredibly painful.
00:36:28:14 - 00:36:51:21
Unknown
But I would have left Naya at home just to say. But, Yeah. So that as soon as my bladder released, I was able to center. I just literally sat on the toilet, put a bowl, you know, in the toilet, and then I coughed and it came out and. Yeah. So then that was about 15 hours later. And then, you know, all the adrenaline started to cool, cool down.
00:36:51:21 - 00:37:08:16
Unknown
And I was I started to feel like what I had just been through because I didn't feel like it before. Yeah. So and yeah, that was that was an incredible relief. Once that had.
00:37:08:18 - 00:37:22:10
Unknown
Shifted. So she was just like a totally normal, perfect able to nurse. No red flags 34 weaker. Yeah. She was.
00:37:22:12 - 00:37:42:05
Unknown
Yeah. She was really pink. She seemed fine. Like she, she was like she looked like a little skinny bean. But I haven't seen many newborns. I think a lot of newborns look a bit skinny. Right. She was. She was 5 pounds. Yeah, she seemed fine. I didn't have any kind of no, no motherly instincts to me. Worried about anything.
00:37:42:06 - 00:38:05:00
Unknown
And her nursing was easy. Yeah, I think the first few days, because I've never done it before, I struggled. I struggled a little bit, you know, just to get the latch right and but yeah, no, no issues. She just she slept a lot. But she's just been through this huge experience of becoming a spirit into a body. So I imagine that's normal for sure.
00:38:05:00 - 00:38:08:03
Unknown
So yeah.
00:38:08:05 - 00:38:38:10
Unknown
So simple Yeah. You know, if you had been if you had gone to a hospital anywhere in the world at 34 weeks, you know, they would have given you pitocin and forced her to be born even quicker than you know she was, which was already quite fast. And then she would have been taken away to you for assessment.
00:38:38:10 - 00:39:06:04
Unknown
And, you know, most NICU would have to keep her based on their own guidelines of weight and assessment, you know, and gosh, it just would have been you look at this totally normal mother baby. That would have just been totally not normal. You know, her start of life would have been so very different.
00:39:06:06 - 00:39:30:00
Unknown
It's crazy. Like she wouldn't. I guess what I'm saying is she wouldn't have ever gotten the chance to be normal when she clearly was. But she would have even gotten to show that for herself. Exactly. Because, you know, there's no there's no discernment when that happens. It's just like it's black and white. You know, they're going in 34 week 5 pound baby.
00:39:30:00 - 00:39:57:03
Unknown
It's not normal in the system. Yeah. But that's why I love these stories because it's like fuck you. Yes it is you know. Yeah. Like actually look at us out here doing this thing and it's great. Yeah. Like the range of true normal and healthy and possible is so much wider. It's so cool. Yeah. And I was always I just wondered, like, what made you come at this time?
00:39:57:04 - 00:40:17:23
Unknown
You know, because she was obviously ready. I was like, maybe she just wanted to continue that early development growth on breast milk rather than placenta juice. I don't know, like it's like whatever. No no, no. Exactly. Well, it'll be interesting to see if you do choose to have more children like I used to support. I supported this one family.
00:40:18:04 - 00:40:49:09
Unknown
One mother who had she had four children. I was with her for her last three, but all four children came at 34 weeks. Wow. That's just that was her normal, which I don't think is super common. I think it's more I think I think it's more likely that you would carry later in subsequent pregnancies. I think when I zoom out, this is like totally anecdotally, I have no idea what the statistics would be in the system, but I think it's less common that you like are always hitting the same if it's that early.
00:40:49:09 - 00:41:03:20
Unknown
But I did know this woman who I mean, her first one was 34 weeks. Her second one, we were like, it happened again right on the dot. And we were like, oh, that's crazy. By the third one, she's like, maybe this is just what happens. And then obviously by the one we were like, this is your normal every single time.
00:41:03:20 - 00:41:27:03
Unknown
How crazy. So it'll be interesting to see you know. Yeah. What your what your future babies do. And if, if it does have anything to do with that or just her and just her unique timestamp. Yeah. Right. And the crazy thing was, is that we the few days before that had checked this. I don't know if you've ever checked your mind sign.
00:41:27:05 - 00:41:44:02
Unknown
But we when we didn't know if I was going to go into labor, we were like, oh, let's see what her mind sign will be today or tomorrow, the day after. And, yeah, the day that she was born, she, she was water, which her name means water. And then she also was the jaguar, and I'm a jaguar.
00:41:44:02 - 00:42:01:07
Unknown
So we called a Naya jaguar because of that. And we were like, maybe she just needed to be born, you know, on that specific day. Like, it was just I was thinking I was going to have a Sagittarius baby and I had a Libra, you know, like, it's just I couldn't believe I was just. Yeah, completely surprised. But I've.
00:42:01:08 - 00:42:23:10
Unknown
I completely trusted her, like and trusted that. Yeah. I didn't even enter my mind. I think I, I think this is something I got out of the, out of your Complete Guide to Free Birth course, because so many mothers were saying you should have a backup plan. You should, you should, you know, plan for going to the hospital this emergency.
00:42:23:10 - 00:42:37:17
Unknown
And it just didn't resonate with me. I was like, but I don't want to factor that into my consciousness because I don't want that to be my reality. And then I heard Yolanda say that she never, ever made backup plans or she never, ever, you know, was like, have a plan B because she knew that she was going to free birth.
00:42:37:17 - 00:43:12:18
Unknown
And that really validated me. If you're not totally and I think the whole backup plan thing is kind of stupid anyway, because we all know that it is the backup plan. Like, yes, without having to flesh it out, without having to talk about it. Obviously, that is the inherent plan B, and thank thank God, you know, thank God we're in a time that if you truly happen to be one of those very rare women in a life or death situation, how cool that they're.
00:43:12:23 - 00:43:32:16
Unknown
I'd prefer them the systems to be a bit better, but how cool that at least within the realms of that, they might be able to save your life with surgery. Yeah, but shy of that, you know, I mean, it's just it's just like you said around with the catheter. Like, obviously if at some point you couldn't handle it yourself, you knew what you were going to do.
00:43:32:16 - 00:43:55:13
Unknown
So this whole idea of a backup plan and sovereign birth is like, why are we even talking about it? It's obvious. What would be another backup plan. Exactly. And you can just you just know, like, if you're connected to your intuition and your body, you know, when you're in danger because it speaks to you. So I just trusted that my body would let me know if there was something really dangerous or, you know, like if I felt something with Nia was off.
00:43:55:14 - 00:44:18:01
Unknown
Of course I would have gone if it was really like telling me to. But yeah, I just it's like it didn't need to be there as like, you know, overwhelming my shoulder because I feel then that. Yeah. And it has to be worth it because for, for specifically this example of her being on the younger side, that's a good example of like, well, what would they really do?
00:44:18:01 - 00:44:56:09
Unknown
And would that really increase her, her life support, you know, and I mean, time and place, like there's no denying that, that there are definitely technologies and machines within the system that have kept babies alive. And and some of those babies are like normal, functioning people. That's within like of course that's true. And there's also a lot of babies that go into NICU and don't come out or are harmed by the things that they do.
00:44:56:10 - 00:45:20:11
Unknown
Right. So it also needs to be like worth it. That's one of my biggest, what's the right word like upsets around the ignorance that we that women still have around hospital systems and procedures. And what actually goes down is that the majority of what they're doing is not actually supportive of life to mother or baby. It's like objectively just harmful and dangerous.
00:45:20:11 - 00:45:37:22
Unknown
And so, yeah, it's kind of this like gray cloud of like, oh yeah, I'll go there if I think I need help. But most people that are transferring have no idea what they think they need. It's just this kind of like empty, like arms open, just like, save me, but hold up. Why are you going? You know, what do you think they have?
00:45:37:23 - 00:45:57:19
Unknown
Because I know what they have. And they have very little. Yes, they have surgery. They have fucking surgery. If you need surgery to save your baby's life, go there. Right. But anyway, you know what I mean? Like, it's just it's actually a small amount of real tools. I don't think pitocin is a real tool. I don't think epidurals, you know, I think that's nonsense.
00:45:57:21 - 00:46:17:03
Unknown
Like all this stuff that they do is, is insane. But they do have some real tools also. Yeah. Yeah. No, I didn't mention that I had well, I don't know what kind of tear it was, but it was a tear. And I didn't, you know, feel that I would go anywhere to get that looked at. I just trusted that it would heal.
00:46:17:03 - 00:46:43:15
Unknown
And yeah, I have some scar tissue from it and but it's I know that the, the only heals itself and that's what it's designed to do now. Like you're only nine months postpartum. Like, who knows what what it will be like in three years or after another baby. You know, it's it's always changing and healing and in some ways is actually still not that far out.
00:46:43:17 - 00:46:55:13
Unknown
No. It's true. Yeah. Anything else you want to add about your story or postpartum before we close? Just that.
00:46:55:14 - 00:47:38:18
Unknown
I think being able to, I don't know, have this experience of rebirthing and being kind of fully, fully in it without any kind of input from anyone or anything. During the birth and postpartum. I think I didn't know before giving birth, like how incredible the grace is that you can receive if you, you know, don't have so much trauma to process or, you know, like, I mean, of course it was intense in its way and it took me a few days or whatever, but I have experienced so much.
00:47:38:20 - 00:47:55:02
Unknown
So many things just melt away, like becoming a mother, like the story that I held on for so many years of my not so good connection with my mom when I was younger, you know, and I was like, once I became a mother and I just was like, why am I still holding on to this? She's my mother.
00:47:55:05 - 00:48:14:19
Unknown
She's amazing. She did this. And I was like, I was so humbled, you know, by the girl I was still before I gave birth. And so now, like when I commune with my mom, it's like I feel just pure love. And I'm like, what happened to all that shit I was holding against her for my whole fricking life?
00:48:14:22 - 00:48:39:10
Unknown
That's just one aspect of the grace that I can can, I can share. And it's just it feels like becoming a mother, and it just feels like it's just never ending. Like these gifts that we get given. And I don't hear that spoken about enough. And I'm so humbled. I feel so grateful to just be able to just I guess it's also the unconditional love, you know, that you get connected to.
00:48:39:11 - 00:49:00:12
Unknown
It's that that is no joke. Like if you can fully, you know, if you're not living a super stressful life and you can actually like sort of really ground into that. Yeah, yeah. There's so much to receive. Emilee and I, I'm still shocked. You know, I suppose part of my experience it and I'm, I'm so grateful. So grateful for it.
00:49:00:13 - 00:49:32:20
Unknown
It's, it's, I think the most beautiful gift to be a woman, to be able to give birth and to be able to experience it spiritually. I, I had no idea about it. Yeah. It's beautiful. I do think it's the spiritual design. I think it's the natural, the true natural design, which makes sense. Like birth is biologically incentivized to make you want to do more so that we can continue.
00:49:32:21 - 00:50:00:04
Unknown
Right. But most women emerge from their birth being like, hell no. Yeah. Going through that again. But but they haven't yet untangled. It's not birth. It's their life. It's their choices. It's their doctors. It's their shitty husbands. It's their stressful everything. It's their traumatic burst. But we have this, like whole community in this whole archive now of of seven plus seasons, of hundreds of stories of women being like, wait, what?
00:50:00:07 - 00:50:35:00
Unknown
You can be like psychedelics up leveled into all these new levels of consciousness by birth and by mothering in this intact way. And and I mean, I remember that in both my postpartum, I just was like, high as a kite in true euphoria and ecstasy for months and was in a truly altered state of consciousness, just receiving so much, you know, just so much just flooding into my system and like, re reorganizing my consciousness.
00:50:35:01 - 00:51:00:12
Unknown
And it wasn't a level both times. And Nancy and Kristen talk about that a lot with the blood mysteries. What's it called in Chinese medicine? The, the golden opportunities. And that there is this very clear design that in a woman's life we have golden opportunities to uplevel our consciousness. For sure. I got Shiva's obvious. It's so obvious. Well, yeah.
00:51:00:12 - 00:51:20:21
Unknown
And that's the thing. Like, I didn't have, like, a pleasure of orgasmic birth. But what I did, what I did experience through it was, you know, all of this trauma that I was holding from my childhood with my, you know, with my dad, I felt that lifting out of myself. And that's why I was so sensitive to my husband's touch.
00:51:20:22 - 00:51:37:02
Unknown
I was like, get off me. Because, you know, my dad hit me or whatever. And it was like, I literally felt it coming out of my body. So I was like, even though it was incredibly painful, it was my pain that I was holding on to, and it was literally sort of another grace of birth. It was coming out.
00:51:37:02 - 00:51:55:05
Unknown
And because I had the courage or whatever you want to call it, to face that and not give in and just be like, okay, and drug it. Yeah, I was given this gift. It just got lifted out. And, you know, after I gave birth, I was able to forgive my dad. And like just so many things, it was like it was a it was such a huge gift.
00:51:55:06 - 00:52:18:23
Unknown
It like, I can't and like you say, it just keeps on going, like endlessly. I had this moment in my last birth, which was now, you know, almost two years ago, where I was in my bathtub on my knees and just, you know, kind of like chanting and just really getting in it. It was right before I, like, threw up and went into transition.
00:52:18:23 - 00:52:39:17
Unknown
So it was like kind of kind of towards the end. And I was like bouncing around to these different parts of my consciousness and, you know, the parts that were struggling, the thinking negatively, the parts of me that were resisting, and then the other parts that were like, you know, mothering me and resourcing me. And I was kind of like just bouncing around.
00:52:39:17 - 00:53:05:21
Unknown
And I started to cry. And like, from the outside, I have no idea what it would have looked like, but what was happening inside? Yeah. I started to cry. And, you know, it's psychedelic. So it's like really hard to articulate now because it's it's so yeah, it's so psychedelic what's going on in my consciousness. But anyway, my point is that I could feel things rearranging.
00:53:05:21 - 00:53:32:01
Unknown
There was a very specific moment in my birth, and I could feel, even though it all really fucking hurt. It really hurt. I was feeling so much physical pain, and I was feeling a lot of spiritual pain, and it was like a hard purge in ayahuasca or something like it hurt so bad. And so I was crying and I was realizing as the tears were coming down my face, that I was healing in real time.
00:53:32:05 - 00:53:55:00
Unknown
And it it I really only only in ayahuasca has that ever occurred to me like as it was happening, you know that that it was in real time rearranging on, on every layer level of my consciousness. And I just like, have this moment and I can remember the exact position I was in and the water was up to my knees and I was like, oh, that's what is occurring.
00:53:55:00 - 00:54:18:06
Unknown
I'm healing in real time. So cool. And exactly what you said. Like it's also excruciating. Oh yeah. To feel the density of like, you know, it's been so packed in for years and it's like, and that's lifting out and trying to find its way out. And it's like, yeah, because it wasn't like the the pain, the sensations wasn't located.
00:54:18:06 - 00:54:46:19
Unknown
It was like my whole body. It was like I was like an earthquake. And it was rippling out everywhere. It was like every cell of my body like, and I just you can't you can't fathom it. You cannot explain it like, until you've experienced it. And even then, you can't really, like you say, it's like a delic. So it's very hard to recount or explain because it is in itself, you know, you're a portal between the device, I mean, in like a totally other field than the one we're currently trying to communicate over zoom.
00:54:46:21 - 00:55:13:02
Unknown
Yeah, yeah. It's like and that that in itself is the magic and the mystery of it. And again, why, you know, I am excited. I feel like I've got a boy spirit in my field. And I'm very excited for when he wants to come. And I'm very interested to see how my next birth goes like so. Yeah. And it is, you know, I'm assuming obvious to anyone listening, but if this is your first episode ever, let me connect the dots of you know why?
00:55:13:03 - 00:55:36:15
Unknown
Of course, everything you and I are talking about right now, you know why it is sort so heavily to be co-opted and to drug women out of their power and, you know, are born on drugs. We die on drugs as a human race, you know, globally, across the entire planet, the vast majority of humans are born on drugs and then will will pass on drugs.
00:55:36:19 - 00:56:12:07
Unknown
And the ins and outs, you know, of this realm are heavily, heavily medicated and why? And, you know, a really obvious reason for it is that evil forces are holding these portals, you know, that have greatly monopolized these portals so that a lot of dark, you know, energy can can control what's going on and all of that. But then I look at the power of birth, and obviously why I'm so motivated to do what I'm doing is because there's this whole light reality that we know and that many women know and have, like I said, forever.
00:56:12:07 - 00:56:31:13
Unknown
And we'll always know because it is ours to have and ours to enact, and it's just so important that we protect it and that we speak about it and that we share the light that is within all of us. You know, as as women, you know, we are literally, like you said, carriers, instruments of of life and light, you know, same, same.
00:56:31:14 - 00:57:13:16
Unknown
Right. And so it's really just so obvious that the powers, the dark forces at play have done such the successful job fracturing mother baby. And when you rug and harm and fracture the mother baby connection, you can control the consciousness because a wounded mother baby at the center of a culture is fucked. Like we are so fucked that that's the average consciousness and reality and that that we are putting mothers and babies into a really brutal survival mode, out the gates as their initiation.
00:57:13:16 - 00:57:43:14
Unknown
So they have so much to overcome from a survival standpoint. They're never going to access the shit you and I just talked about. But if they did and if they learn and if they do it next time, like watch out world because we're seeing what's happening and it's really big. And the craziest thing you just said is a lot of mothers, they don't even know that they're traumatized because this is the norm, because we're so, you know, brainwashed by by it so, well, never run around them is normalizing it.
00:57:43:14 - 00:58:05:16
Unknown
Everyone's traumatized. I mean, it's such a cesspool of yeah, it's a trip. It is a trip by our membership is, you know, it's why I called it The Lighthouse. Like it is a lighthouse. It's like, look at what's possible. Look at these hundreds and hundreds of women all over the world and all these different countries who are accessing this, and there's nothing special about them.
00:58:05:17 - 00:58:31:00
Unknown
And, you know, different from any other woman on this planet other than the choices that they've made, you know, and the resources that they have been able to access, it's internally. I mean, yeah, you can't underestimate the ripple effect. Like, since becoming a mother, I have suffered so much. I'm not, like, angry at my husband all the time, projecting my shit onto him, you know, like, he's just like, who is this person?
00:58:31:01 - 00:58:52:05
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You know, like, I'm like. I'm like, who is this person? Like, I don't want to chuck my shit on you anymore. I don't want to put you down. I'm like, you know, it's it's it's crazy. So when the mother, like you say, has this experience and she gets to continually receive this grace, it affects everyone. Everything like around, you know, we are just like frequency and energy.
00:58:52:05 - 00:59:14:18
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So, like, if I'm holding this energy as a mother and I'm receiving all this grace that ripples and like you say, that this is why it's been so kind of co-opted because of the potential that we have as women to to shift and to like, become more of what we truly are is huge. And I know I named it Matriarch Rising.
00:59:15:00 - 00:59:36:19
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Yeah. Like literally what you just articulated is why that is the name. Because that's what happens when a mature. Yeah, yeah. I mean, the whole time we've been talking about this, I've had like energy moving all the way up my back and everything. It's just like, and I'm so glad to talk about this with you because, like, yeah, it's just it's magical.
00:59:36:19 - 00:59:58:21
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And I want it to be spoken about more so that women know that it's possible because we don't know. Like, I didn't know it was possible before and I was choosing free birth, you know, it's like, yeah. So grateful. Thank you. Thank you so much. Emilee. Grateful to have your story be shared this way. Thank you.
00:59:58:23 - 01:00:24:09
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01:00:24:09 - 01:00:59:20
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01:00:59:21 - 01:01:22:00
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The lighthouse is definitely something to check out if you're looking for a community of wise sisters to get guidance from and to meet in real life, together we rise. Sisters, we must speak our stories, fully, claim our lives, and support one another. This is the living revolution and I am so grateful to be in it with all of you.
01:01:22:00 - 01:01:57:10
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I'll leave you with our gorgeous free birth society theme song, Wild Woman by Aruba. Read I honor you for the wisdom you held, the ancient traditions of plant medicine and womb magic. Magic. I feel the spirit of the ancestors as I place my hands upon my belly. This sacred portal will be honored eons upon light beams of survival, withstanding the eradication of our power by design.
01:01:57:15 - 01:02:24:01
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I will not allow the separation of our young to be forced upon me. My sisters will no longer birth in captivity. The picket line redefined from burning our wild women to paralyzing us and drugging our babes, strapped down in a clinical white bed, drying up the milk from our breasts. Keep your needles. My family will never again be doomed to chase those dragons.
01:02:24:01 - 01:02:50:05
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All your words. We reject your fear. We choose love. Everything with intention, death, ascension. I will fly and bring her back to the stars. Just watch us while the she still lives inside.
01:02:50:07 - 01:03:12:02
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Wild woman from you I will not hide. They could not find your spirits away. So please teach me your way. I'm ready to love from you. Why?
01:03:12:04 - 01:03:19:10
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I still remember running with the wolves when it's time.
01:03:19:12 - 01:03:26:21
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I still run around the dining room. We were all once wild.
01:03:26:23 - 01:03:34:06
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I still run, run, run. Where the wolves when the sky.
01:03:34:08 - 01:03:39:17
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We all came from. While the woman.
